~KooKOoMoMo~

assalamaualaikum....

erm...dh lame rasenye aku x update blog...lot of things happened lately...
laptop aku A.K.A my baby msuk spital bru2 ni....terkene jgkitan H1N1 agaknye...
hua3...smiggu lamenye die trlantar d wad icu...doc plak x serius lgsung...slame smggu tu idup aku x tntu arah..just feels like something's missing...ari2 duk pk psl baby...rindu bangat mahu ketemu...alhamdulillah skrg baby dh kuar dr spital tp byk ubat kene bg mkan sb die dh x sprti dlu...setelah d format baru, die mnjadi org bru... but same old brand new baby...huhuhu...
but there's still a prob with the baby...it couldn't install ym, java n flash player..(sigh!) don't know what is wrong...these three things r important components for me to do my work...

p/s: to every muslim out there who read this(if any), "SELAMAT BERPOSE"

I created this a long time ago when i had nothing to do...then a thought crossed my mind, to create phrases from some songs of my favourite boyband, WESTLIFE and this is it..the result... a combination of westlife's songs. just take a look ya...huhuhu

1. I have a dream
2. To be loved
3. Don't wanna fight
4. Change the world
5. What i want is what i've got
6. Moment
7. Flying without wings
8. Seasons in the sun
9. Somebody needs you
10. Open your heart
11. Try again
12. You don't know
13. I need you
14. more than words
15. No no
16. fool again
17. I promise you that
18. If i let you go
19. You can't lose what u've never had

We ought to know what are best for us by growing instead of just getting by. Listen first before answering, worry less, fear not, let the Divine's will be done, not us. Do not take problems to bed, do not wallow in self-pity and count our blessings that all of us have plenty. i'm getting weak each day...so, i dedicate these 9 principles on how to deal with obstacles to myself...be strong, Nurul! always remember that every problem has solution...aja aja fighting!

[1] You should not worry, for worry is the most unproductive of all human activities.

Worry is a negative state of mind which deals with the same problem over and over again, yet nothing is solved.

[2] You should not be fearful, for most of the things we fear never come to pass.

Fear is the opposite of confidence. It is also another negative emotion where it deals with uncertainty and loses heart easily. How can one win when one feels defeated even before the game has started?

[3] You should not cross bridges before you get to them, for no one yet has succeeded in accomplishing this. Deal with each problem as it comes, you can handle only one at a time anyway.

Let God's will be done, not ours. What will happen will happen for a good cause. One cannot deal with unseen problems though one can learn to troubleshoot.

[4] You should not take problems to bed with you for they make very poor bedfellows.

Problems are not solved when one go to sleep, be rested proper to have our energies and spirits renewed to stand tall to face all challenges the next day..

[5] You should not borrow other people's problems. They can take better care of them than you can.

There are numerous other people's problems beyond one's expectations and understandings. Learn to tackle our own problems before giving a hand to others. Solve our own problems before minding other people's problems.

[6] You should not try to relive yesterday for good or bad… it has already gone! Concentrate on what is happening in your life today.

There is no use crying over spilt milk. Be geared towards moving a step at a time. 'Yesterday was a cancelled check, tomorrow is a promissory note, Today is ready cash, Use it to the fullest!' That was what people used to say.

[7] You should be a good listener, for only when you listen do you hear ideas different from your own. It is very hard to learn something new when you are talking.

We have a pair of ears but only one mouth. Be patient to speak before understanding. Our mouths serve us best when in accord with inner conscience where Truth dwells..

[8] You should not become bogged down by frustration, for 90 percent of it is rooted in self-pity, and it will only interfere with positive action.

Self-pity is the web that spins miseries and traps oneself with their 'self-dug-pits' or dungeons. Slithering snakes and crawling insects will be your friends while in the darkness of frustrations.

[9] You should count your blessings, never overlooking the small ones, for a lot of small blessings add up to a big one!

For every blessings known to you, there are hundreds more that you don't know. Have heart in all you do. Always be grateful in all we have. Gratitude is a virtue for all. Gratitude is a key to peace of mind and heart.

When one seeks to assuage the suffering of others, it is really one's own suffering that one mitigates the relief. When one direct one's attention to the inner-self, which is Truth, one will perceive the same Divinity to be present in all. Thus it makes up these 9 principles to live by.........

When times get tough,
And life seems rough,
Don't you ever think you were born to die,
But know that you were born to survive,
Don't give up,
Because you haven't been defeated until you stop trying,
And it doesn't matter how many times you fall,
But how many times you get back up.

God gives every woman that special strength inside.
To survive,
And to get on with life.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

i've come back to life! hahaha

starting 2morrow, i'll be away for two weeks...ku nk mnyepikan diri lg...klu dlu aku p bertapa kat gnung everest...kali ni aku nk g bertapa kt gnung halla je r kt korea... cam lam cte sam soon tu...huhuhu..sblm aku p bertapa aku terpaksa g berperang dlu kt dewan uia 26hb ari jumaat ni kul 9pg...ari yg bgus tuk berperang tu...perang dunia ke 2.888...haha...mntk2 la aku survive nnti lam peperangan ni... amin... doakanlah kejayaanku ini...sesungguhnya berdoa utk owg dlm peperangan itu tinggi dan besar pahalanye...so, doa2kanlah...jasamu kan ku kenang slalu n smoga idopmu drhmati-Nya....

k la...goodbye...

Dad's are often the most misunderstood in the family unit. As a rule, men have trouble displaying their emotions. This is product of our society that believes that it is not macho to be show emotions. Fathers may have been shamed into repressing their emotions and may pass this on to their children. On the other hand a father who can show his children that a real man is one who shows emotion is a great gift to his children. A father plays a huge role in his children's development. Hopefully, he will live up to the challenge of being the best Dad that he can be.

Father's Day is not as respected and popularly observed as Mother's Day. There is a simple reason for this. Although almost everyone has difficult issues with their mothers, there is no doubt as to their mother's love. The same is not true for fathers. Because men have a more difficult time expressing their feelings to their children, many children go through life with the mistaken notion that their fathers don't love them. This is a tragedy because fathers generally love their children dearly and often work long hours so that they can raise their children in comfort.


Happy Father's day to my beloved dad!




You may have thought I didn't see,
Or that I hadn't heard,
Life lessons that you taught to me,
But I got every word.

Perhaps you thought I missed it all,
And that we'd grow apart,
But Dad, I picked up everything,
It's written on my heart.

Without you, Dad, I wouldn't be
The girl I am today;
You built a strong foundation
No one can take away.

I've grown up with your values,
And I'm very glad I did;
So here's to you, dear father,
From your forever grateful kid...

You raise me up by Westlife

P/S: this video is dedicated to my mom n dad!

The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!
& sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u tell this to guys, they will swear that it's not true.......
but if u don't, they say u are selfish....

1. Sayangi dia dengan hati, bukan dengan perasaan. Jika anda meletakkan sesuatu perhubungan berdasarkan perasaan, ianya akan gagal kerana perasaan sentiasa berubah dari masa ke semasa.

2. Sayangi dia seadanya. Di dunia terdapat hampir 6 billion manusia dengan 6 billion personaliti. Dia sememangnya seorang yang istimewa dan biarkan ianya kekal begitu. Jangan sesekali terfikir untuk mengubah apa-apa tentang dia kerana sekali anda mengubah, selamanya anda akan terus mengubah dirinya. Tentu anda masih ingat, anda terpikat padanya kerana dia adalah dia. Maka, tiada alasan untuk anda mengubah dia untuk menjadi seseorang yang lain.



3. Sayangi dia sepenuh hati. Sesungguhnya dia telah banyak bekorban untuk anda. Dengan kelebihan yang ada padanya, dia berpeluang untuk menjalin hubungan dengan seseorang yang lebih sempurna tapi demi cinta, dia telah memilih diri anda. Maka, jangan sesekali cuba untuk mempermain-mainkan keluhuran cintanya.

4. Hormati pendirian dan keputusan dia. Jangan anda merayu dan jangan mencipta alasan supaya dia menerima cinta anda kerana kelak, yang anda akan dapat darinya hanyalah cinta simpati dan bukannya cinta setulus hati.



5. Yakinkan diri anda akan keistimewaan dia. Dia adalah satu-satunya di dunia ini dan jangan mengharapkan kesempurnaan dari dia kerana dia telahpun cukup sempurna semenjak anda mula terpikat padanya.

6. Percaya akan dirinya. Sentiasa bersangka baik padanya jika kita juga mahukan sebegitu darinya. Pastikan anda akan sentiasa meletakkan diri anda di tempatnya sebelum melakukan apa-apa. Jika anda sendiri tidak dapat menerimanya, apatah lagi dia.



7. Jangan berjanji menyayangi dia untuk selama-lamanya kerana selama-lamanya bagi anda mungkin akan berakhir keesokkan harinya, tapi berjanjilah untuk menyayangi dirinya seolah-olah setiap hari itu adalah hari yang terakhir untuk anda berdua.

8. BERCINTA dengannya adalah seperti memberi hati anda kepadanya untuk dilukai tapi kepercayaan itu penting. Percayalah kepadanya, nescaya dia akan melindunginya sepenuh jiwa dan raga.



9. Jangan sesekali meninggalkan dia tanpa sebarang alasan. Dia bukan hanya akan setakat menangis kecewa dan kemudiannya meneruskan hidup seperti biasa, ketahuilah bahawa jiwanya akan mati secara perlahan.

10. Jangan cepat berbangga dengan diri anda, memenangi hatinya bukanlah satu kejayaan yang mutlak tetapi anugerah itu hanya layak anda perolehi setelah anda berjaya menyayanginya sehingga ke akhir hayat. Ketahuilah, dia memilih anda adalah kerana dia percaya bahawa anda adalah seorang yang jujur dan akan menepati janji. Anda telah bersusah payah dan berusaha sedaya upaya untuk memenangi cintanya, maka dengan itu haruslah juga anda berusaha untuk terus menyintai dirinya dengan apa jua keadaan sekalipun...

i wish i could tell my loved ones that i loved them and they mean a lot to me and i really appreciate them...and i could never ever live without them especially my mom and family...but i never show that coz i'm not that kind of girl..it's hard for me to say words like 'i love u, i miss you, i care about u' things like that.even sometimes words of sorry n tq r hard for me to say.i'm not so good with words...but deep down inside my heart, how i wish i could say them...how i wish that i could show them what i really feel. nevertheless, i really hope that they know what i feel for them...as saying goes; action speaks louder than words...

p/s:To Mom~ i would die without u coz u r my everything!
To Family~ i could never imagine my life without u!
To Friends~ u cheer up my life n tq for being my friends!
>>i love u all...

what's the point in ever trying to be happy when the very
pursuit of happiness is what makes u miserable...

so,kite enjoy dulu!!!!
hahahahahahaahaaha....

something wrong with my mind today!
just ignore it..

It takes a lot to know what is love
It’s not a big thing, but little thing
That can mean enough
And there is never a day that passes by
I don’t think of you

I hate myself for giving my heart to you
And trusting you with all my soul
I hate myself for wanting you
And needing you by my side

If you only knew
Just how much I really love you
I think about you night and day
My love for you will always stay

I hate myself for the feelings
I never knew I had
I hate myself for my thoughts of you
Where I would never be on your mind

I know I’m weak
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you notice me?
Do you even know you met me?

I hate myself for the way I am
And for how you make me feel
But most of all I hate myself
Cause you’ll by no means ever be mine

No, no, I’m not in love
It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
I mean what I say today
But tomorrow I know that I was lie

You weren’t supposed to mean that much to me
And I wasn’t supposed to fall in love with you


                                                      -Farafisha-

it's 4.38 in the morning...
still i can't sleep..
i'm all alone in my room...
all my roommates back to their home...
well,nver mind...i'm used to it..

fuh...dh lega dh coz presentation bm dh lepas...wlaupon tdk dpt lari dri prasaan nervous...ia dpt d lihat mlalui suara aku yg getar...hahahhaa...malunyer ble d fkirkan...tp nk wt cmne...itulah aku...owg len pon nervous jgk tp xla nmpk sgt...
aku??? too obvious...(sigh..) aku dan nervous tdk dpt dipisahkan...shati dan sjiwa la katekan...huhuhu...i always try my best to control my nervousness but still can't help it..still can't get over it...i hate presentation the most coz i'm weak at it...klu d beri plihan antara presentation n assgnment, certainly aku akn plih assgnment...no doubt about that..i would do anything asalkan tdk kpd presentation...tp sygnya...aku x dberi plihan utk memilih...so, like it or not, i hv to..

skrg hnye asgnment novel lom siap...next week kne submit...bak kate kwn aku "elek elek sudah..." hahahaha...biase r...kje aku bru mnjadi ble last minute je...
wlaupon tkut n pning ble memikirkannye,bleh lg aku duk goyang kaki...duk buat kje yg x berpaedah...klu xde kje nk buat aku tido...huhuhu...pdahal assgnment x siap g...
sbnrnye, x start pon lg...kih kih kih....ble la aku nk brubh...aku pon xtau...

sitting by the window...
i wonder where you are,
i wonder what you're thinking of tonight.
i don't know why i lost your touch...
wishing you were here
because the memory's not enough...
wear my mask in silence,
pretending i'm alright.
if you could see then you would be
here standing by my side...
it may be hard to believe
but you're the only one i need.
it may be hard along the way...
it's this feeling i get
when blue skies turn to grey...
feels like i'm walking in the rain.
i find myself trying to wash away the pain,
cause i need you to give me some shelter
cause i'm fading away...
and i'm walking in the rain.



every single hour
of every single day...
i need to cry, my eyes are dry.
i've cried my tears away...
can't help but remember
how you made me feel.
you dressed my soul and made me whole,
you made my life complete.
all things we've said and done
remains the memories of days
when life was fun
but now when you are gone,
i sit alone to watch the
setting of the sun...

i love walking in the rain
because no one knows i'm crying...

Don't speak, seal your lips.
Please don't say a word, maybe I
won't remember the words I have
not heard.
I see that you're in love, I know it's not for me.
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory.


It's never too late to relight the fire
It's never stopped burning for me.
The flame, it never died inside of me.
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late.
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years.
I'll take the tears.

I sit and reminisce of times that we once shared.
You gave me more than love. But
never thought I cared.
My feelings were all for you.
Although it didn't show.
I only told you on the day you let me to go.

Now I realize that you're no longer mine.
But I'm hoping that the pain will ease in time.
Although you're leaving, I won't say goodbye.
Because I know you're here with me inside.

Nobody knows me yet everyone knows my name.
Some people judge me, not knowing that i'm the same.
Thanks for the offer but i keep my old friends always.
But then i'll get lonely, counting the endless days.
Are you here for me at all? Do you care for me at all?
Well, this time now i know i ain't standing alone no more...

Cos all i want is love...
Someone who can share the pain i feel.
And the eyes that stare won't stare at me no more.
And all i need is time...
Time for me to open up and show the person i am.
The person you think you know but you don't know...

Some hearts felt emotion creeping from deep inside.
Cos being this person is all i've got left's to hide...

There was this guy who loved two girls at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more. Someone taught him.

Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :
"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.

Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :
"When you are sad, which girl you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love.

If you think of the same girl when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same girl, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.

In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.
If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your sadness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you. But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with. Of course, u will be very happy if u're the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, u will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will u believe that u hold a very important position in her heart.

so, If you are sad, who comes to your mind first? Only u can answer this question...

So this is who I am,
And this is all I know,
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
The spark that makes the power grow
And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only...
And I must follow on the road that lies ahead,
And I won't let my heart control my head,
But you are my only...
And I know what I've got to be immortality
I make my journey through eternity
I keep the memory of you and me inside...

Fulfill your destiny,
Is there within the child,
My storm will never end,
My fate is on the wind,
The king of hearts, the joker's wild,
I'll make them all remember me
Cos I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through,
But you are my only...
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play,
Hand over my heart I'll find my way,
I will make them give to me...

Some say that women are like apples on trees,the best ones are on the top of the tree. The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and don't want to get hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't so good but easy. So, the apples at the top think something is wrong with them when in reality they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top because they value quality.

so, here i am, like one of the apples at the top...still and always waiting for the right man to come along my way and shower me with love. sometimes the thought crosses my mind..is there someone out there for me? for how long do i have to wait for him to come into my life? sometimes, like the apple at the top, i used to think that there is something wrong with me...yeah, coz i never know what so special about me...if someone asked me this kind of question, i would totally couldn't answer that. most of the things that i know about me are all weaknesses..All i can see in me is all flaws... therefore, i would deeply appreciate if someone could honestly tell me what kind of person i am...this is because we can only see the real us in others' eyes...

i'm always standing here, still and will always waiting for you no matter how many years it takes...i do believe that everything happens for a reason.Allah may have a bigger and better plan for me...tq Allah for making me accept things the way it should be..alhamdulillah...syukur kpd allah krn bri kan ku kesabaran dan ketabahan hati utk truskn idop smpai saat ini..sesungguhnya ajal maut, jodoh pertemuan di tanganNya...aku redha dgn ape yg ditakdirkn untukku... eh?errr...what am i talking about?am i out of topic... huhuhu.. whatever la...asalkan bhagia....

To that special someone…
I'm waiting here for that someone…
Every day and night…
Needing someone to hold me tight…
To cheer me up when I'm sad…
And make me smile when I mad…
I need that someone that always care…
Someone that will always be there…
Even when I'm right or wrong…
And always there to keep me strong…
Someone to show me there is no fear…
Someone always there and always near…
Always helping me to get me through…
Someone there to say 'I love you'…
Someone to be there when I'm cold…
And always there for me to hold…
Someone there for me to think of…
Someone there to show me love…



Me is the one at the top...huhu...


Apple tree quote...

Sometimes, fate has
a cruel way of
putting things together,

but surely we can't blame the fate

that has been destined for us.

Maybe it's better
if people just give up
when there's no point
in fighting for something anymore.
When the ship
has finally sailed,
only a fool would go after
when it's already miles away.
But sometimes,
it's a lot better to be a fool
to go after what
we want and need,
rather than to regret
everything in the end
because we never even tried..

Never thought that
Loving someone is so painful
Time goes by day and night
Still I can’t get you off my mind
Thinking about this feeling
That I have for you
Makes me cry
You don’t know what it’s like
Loving you all this time

I’ve tried to forget you
But still I think about you all the time
My heart still beats for you
Breathes for you, looks for you
And these feelings will never fade
I’ve tried to open my heart
To someone else but I can’t
Cause it’s only belong to you
I’m tearing out my heart
To give it to you
But you just throw it away
I can conceal my pain
But I can never hide the way I feel for you

I keep asking myself
Why can’t this feeling just fade away?
Cause I know well enough
It’s almost unfeasible for me
To have your love
Cause in your eyes
I’m just too small to see
And I’ve got this feeling
That you will never ever be mine

Now I’m at the crossroad of my life
Should I just keep this feeling and won’t let it show?
Should I just forget you and walk away?
Sooner or later I’ve got to choose
Even though it’s really hurt me so


                                             -Farafisha-

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else....
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a friend,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so nervous when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretended that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish…

what is love???????
LOVE:we THINK about it, DREAM about it, lose sleep WORRYING about it. When we DON'T have it, we SEARCH for it! and when we DISCOVER it, we DON'T know WHAT to do with it...we fear of LOSING it! it's our SOURCE of HAPPINESS and PAIN, but we CAN'T predict which it will be FROM one MOMENT to the NEXT. it's a short word. EASY to say, EASY to spell, DIFFICULT to define, a WHOLE lifetime to prove and...IMPOSSIBLE to live without! that is all about LOVE....

tension! tension! tension!
idop ini penuh ngan ketensionan...hahahahahahhaahaha
too much things to do..
and in the end i don't know what to do...hahaha...
tido lagi besstttt.....huhuhu...

I've made mistakes in my life and i have a lot of regrets. I've let people take advantage on me and I can't even defense myself. I've let my weaknesses get over me. And I accepted way less than deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle anything less than I deserve...Really sorry for the person I became.So sorry that it takes so long for me to change.I'm ready to try and yet always fail..i know it's not easy for me to change but somehow i must try...Cause who I am hates who I've been...




I trully believe that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together...No one ever said life was easy. There will always be someone who will break your heart. You may be so depressed, you just sit in the corner and cry for hours. But you just have to remember, LIFE GOES ON…