Saturday, 24 November 2012
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
12
“Move back home. What's gonna happen
to Mom's dream of everyone staying together happily? Treat Ha Ni
better as well. She thought you left because of her. Shouldn't you do
something?”
Mom is always worried about Ha Ni. But
you don't have to. Ha Ni will find her own way no matter how. This
kid is so much more stronger than I imagine.
“I decide my own life. I won't be
Mom and Dad's puppet. To Ha Ni as well. You didn't ask for my opinion
when you asked her to move back in with us this time. So Mom, just
let it be.”
Mom, you are making it difficult for
me. How nice it will be if you don't always ask me to do things your
way. That is what other people call popularity.
The incident on dressing up as a girl
that made me became a laughing stock among my friends, made me
singled out from others. Plus being called genius, compared to other
kids I know much more, so I've been treated life a treasure.
Unknowingly, I got used to the life of
not expressing my thought. In this world that even if I know many
things but it still wouldn't be accepted infront of this mom who
always says “It would be great if it's a girl.” It's very
difficult to express myself.
Now, I'm going to look for myself. Look
for the me that can still survive even without any help. A strong
world that no one can interfere.
Accompanying the sound of the wind, Ha
Ni walked out. Is she angry?
Denying that she's my girlfriend. It's
still a little dificult for me to explain.
I don't like to talk about us infront
of people whom I'm not very close with. Those people always choose to
only listen about what they want. Can our difference be told by
words?
Publisizing distorted facts. Do they
know that this will bring damage to others? But no matter when, you
will still be Number 1 in my heart.
Ha Ni, you are the only one whom I can
tell my worries to. That is you! Oh Ha Ni.
Is it right? My decision...
The decision about going to medical
school, is it really mine?
Dad who asked me to study business, Ha
Ni who said that it would be great if I go to medical school.
I, who will not be the puppet of my
parents, why would I be manipulated by Ha Ni?
“Baek Seung Jo, you do well in
everything. If you go to medical school, you can cure No Ri and many
other people in the world. Isn't it great to be able to help others?”
Couldn't forget the scene of you
looking at me. You who told me confidently what I should do. Then on,
I secretly learn a little on medical.
Surprisingly, I'm getting interested in
it. Gaining more and more interest in the field that's new to me.
So I decided this will be the path I'll
take. The way you guided me.
“Anything troubling you? Let me help
you!”
It would be great if you really help me. Unknowingly coming after me because I don't look well. You are
always looking at me, right?
That's why you are feeling troubled? My
friend, Oh Ha Ni.
“I've decided to study medical.
Although I'm not sure if it's suitable for me, but this is the first
time I'm interested in something.”
“Is it because of what I said? Still
remember the things I've said?”
Able and know what to do well...Seems
like you have already forgotten what you said to me. Indeed, it's
you...silly.
I feel that everything you said to me
have special meaning, so I remember everything. I have things I want
to do, living my life happily, provide happiness to others...
You said things like if I can become a
doctor, I'll be able to save No Ri. I changed because of what you
said. My life, you gave me a meaning to it.
Still the same! Panicking Oh Ha Ni!
You said that all your friends have
found things that they want to do. You looked really lonely. I want
to listen to your worries today, just like how you listened to me few
days ago.
“Tell me! Tell me your dream.”
“It's if you're a doctor in the
village, I'm the nurse. I will help you with the work, pacifying
those crying children. But there's a problem in my dream. If you want
to be a pilot, I want to be a stewerdess. If you want to be a
professional golfer, I'll be a caddy, still as willful. I'm always
revolving around Baek Seung Jo. Don't have a presence of my own.”
Although you said sorry but I still
feel secretly happy. In your dreams, there's still me. But can you
she become a nurse with her results?
“Isn't it worth it to fullfil your
dreams, right?”
I patted her shoulder. Just like what
she did to me. The day I went for the exam, you patted my shoulder
and say 'good boy'! Like the day in the car on the way to the beach,
you patted my shoulder while laughing, and like the time when we were
catching the doll. You always comfort me like this...
So today, I also use this way to comfort you. Oh Ha Ni, fighting!! Hope that you'll be able to fulfill your
dream no matter what. Even it's really tough, you have to know that
you are Noah's snail Oh Ha Ni!
Wait. Wait for the day that we both
wear the white robe.
“Seung Jo-ah! You decide your future
without discussing it with me?”
Dad looked really angry. Dad who always
speaks in a soft tone now sounds really angry.
“I wish to do things that I like in
my life.”
“Can't you take over Dad's company?”
“I want to be a doctor. I won't take
over Dad's company.”
Ignoring my dad's opinion, it's not
part of my plan to allow Dad to interfere with my life.
Yes, this is the ridiculous thing that
I imagine. Eating the raw yam, drinking the salty soup. This is the
first time I'm eating yam that taste like raw potato, crunchy, it
really isn't that good.
But I still finished it because it's
made by her. She would be very sad if I didn't eat it. How her eyes
would be sunken? How much torment would she get from Eun Jo?
I'm always worried about you. I did
housework when I was living alone. It's really not something easy.
The empty space of yours makes me feel
regret. Only now I treasure you by my side.
Even though I said I'll eat outside,
you still prepared a lunch box.
“I did it from early in the
morning...”
Pleading, can't do anything other than
accept it. Couldn't ignore that thought, I accepted the lunch box in
fear.
Right too, I think I heard the noise
you made since early in the morning. Although the heart shaped egg
looked so good, but how does it taste?
Even though it really did look like you
put in all your heart to do it, but why did it make me feel more and
more uneasy?
“Your lover did it?”
Department Head asked me. I don't know
why but I didn't disagree. Already to the extend that I couldn't deny that you have already gone so deep into my heart.
Joon Gu gave me his eel lunch box and
snatched the one Ha Ni made away. Joon Gu, today you will know Ha
Ni's nature. Maybe the split second when your fantasy burst will be
very charming. Keke...
“Seems like Dad needs operation. I
have to be in the company for the time being.”
Slowly, words flew out of my mouth. I
thought it would be great if I didn't have to be the one saying it.
But there's really nothing I can do when facing the reality.
“Then what about medical school? This
is the first time, the first time you have something that you want to
do, your dream!”
Yes, that's my dream. A painful dream
that disappears.
“Although it's not interesting, but
if I stay in the company, Dad will be happy.”
Yes, even if I have to compromise, but
it will be good if I can succeed. Although it's boring to me...
“Seung Jo, how? What should I do?”
Today, your sad voice gave me comfort.
Compared to me, you who feel sad because of me...Your tears...it
became a comfort. Slowly, going into my life, unknowingly it reduced
my pain.
The night that we both suffer in
agony...Even the stars couldn't get to sleep, you and I couldn't get
to sleep...
“President's grand-daughter is there.
Do you mind going for a meet up?”
Blind date as the condition of
providing financial support...
Business strategic marriage that always
happens for business is going to come true? When money and money
meets, benefits and benefits meets, it's like begging, I also have to
do it? To save the company?
I also have to do the things that I
once looked down upon. This is the cruel truth. I understand that no
matter how I feign arrogance, I still can't avoid the fact that's
coming to me.
Dad works hard like this too?
Alone...like this...fighting against how many problems that he
couldn't solve?
Man, the support of the family, the
burden in the life is too heavy, seems like it's suffocating.
How?
You're still going through so much
trouble for my family today but I have to abandon you...How? I...
I hurt my dad too much. There's really
nothing else I can do. Feeling sorry for dad who has fainted because
of the shock that I gave him.
Dad's dream. I can't act like I don't
know dad's hardship all along. Family who rely on this company...
Mom and Eun Jo...what will happen to
you?
Ha Ni-ah...what about my heart that
couldn't incline to you?
The newly born man in me is bleeding.
Pain, very painful.
Now I have decided....abandon you.
Delete all those wonderful memories...It's okay, it's going to be
okay...it's only 2 years. The memories with her, just forget and it
will be okay.
I can forget, keep my heart away. Like
a paper that's being hit by water, keeps tearing my heart apart...
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
11
You didn't disappointing me, Oh Ha Ni
who's always so abrupt totally fell through. Are you really a girl?
Right too, this is Oh Ha Ni!
Your sleeping posture, even a wrestler
couldn't compete with you. Finally managed to fall asleep and your
leg came over or your hands started waving onto my face. What were
you dreaming about? Laughing non stop and frowning. Did you just have
a bad dream?
Just then, fell of the bed. No matter
what, I was unable to sleep. Maybe this is also lucky to me!
Didn't all 20 years old guy imagine
something like this. The girl lying beside you, breathing slowly, both
hands placing in front of your chest, lying her head on your arm,
sleeping soundly.
I might need to go through a very tough
night but it's also good in a way, thank you for disrupting my sleep.
Thank you for holding on tightly to my heart, Oh Ha Ni. Keke!
You look like a puppy when you are
sleeping so soundly. When you frown, you look like a kitten. You look
kinda cute like this.
Wear the clothes that you pick? Oh Ha
Ni, don't tell me now you are indulging yourself into your fascination about me. Imagining that today is the first morning of our marriage
life?
Just a little better, and you start to
have unlimited fascination How should I show you my inner self? Seems
like I can only smile like this behind your back, you silly girl.
This kind of newly wed life, how is it
entertaining? I beg you, please don't be so over. Although I'm also
felt it's interesting.
Having breakfast with you, wearing the
shoes you prepared for me, you tapping my shoulder, it's all like
some childish make-believe game.
But I will remember this day for a long
time, very very long time. A certain innocent and silly girl, the
silly girl that imagines a lot, kind of story.
Oh Ha Ni received date request from
other guy? What type of guy would like her? With so special taste.
Even if so, this kid wouldn't change.
No matter what have you all heard, Oh Ha Ni will not change. Nothing
to worry about. Wrong, is that I don't want to worry at all.
Silly Oh Ha Ni, I wore the clothes that
you picked for me today. You should be happy if you see it!
Just when I was thinking about that, I
heard you said...
“That guy, he's also as handsome as
you. That guy also as smart as you. The biggest difference is, he
treats a girl much better than you!”
So, that senior is as handsome as me,
smart, treating girls well. So, you are going to forget me? You will
not succeed!
“Don't have to ask me for permission.
Oh Ha Ni is not mine, go ahead!”
Even if I abandon her, she will not go
anywhere else but it's also a good idea if you can give up.
I have confidence. I believe that Oh Ha
Ni will never leave me!
What's that scorching things that's
flowing in my heart? There's an unknown thing boiling. My mind seems
like it's going to explode.
How dare he put his arm on Ha Ni's
shoulder. Oh Ha Ni, how dare you smiled so happily in other guy's
arm? Even I don't have such body contact with you.
It's nothing. I believe nothing will
happen. I still couldn't tolerate that arm on Ha Ni's shoulder.
Hurt just like something was poking
into me. An unknown fire started in my heart. My heart was like
stepping on a thin layer of ice, breaking into half. I...can only ran
away from that table.
Oh Ha Ni only likes me. Till now, it's
only me! This is only a tactic, a tactic to make me jealous. I try to
comfort myself, Ha Ni. She's still that Noah's snail Oh Ha Ni that
still only looks at me. I believe that.
No matter what, I still feel that it's
a scheme between her and Mom. Because I believe in Oh Ha Ni. Wanted
to monitor it further because her looks when she's trying to lie to
me is really interesting.
But I really couldn't bear to see it
anymore. The moment when I heard that you went on a date with senior
at the park, a voice in me was telling myself to quickly end this.
Looking at someone else putting his arm
on your shoulder in the park, how will you smile at home? Or will he
hold your hand? All these questions filled up in my head like
bubbles.
“You guys can't be fighting over Oh
Ha Ni right? No matter how you fight, even if you really injured
yourself, it has nothing to do with me. But I'm the only one that Ha
Ni likes. It's you who will be in the lose end even if you fight!”
(Got it? So, Oh Ha Ni's shoulders belong to me!)
The shoulders that my hand was holding
on felt so realistic. “Didn't Mom ask us home for dinner together
tonight?” (This is how our relationship is like. It's the relation
that we can freely move in and out of the house!)
Today, the childish boy in me once
again defended his own territory. Oh Ha Ni only likes me!
2nd kiss
“Seung Jo-ah, the mountain trail is
so dangerous! It seems like there's animals in there!”
“Where's Eun Jo and Ha Ni? They are
the first to set off and they still not back yet?”
Thunders started ringing in my ears.
Don't tell me they are alone in the mountain? First time climbing the
mountain, they didn't even know the way.
A cold and scary wave crept up from
behind. Uneasiness gushed in like Tsunami.
The place managed by Sunbae has sudden
increase in customers. Although it's not rapid growth, but it's
gradually going up. Other than cafe, I also wish to go other places
and learn more.
Sweeping the fallen leaves, welcoming
guests or preparing the barbecue pit. Although I'm not very good at
it, sometimes it might not even work but's it's very interesting.
Can prove your value but just some
simple work that doesn't require to be smart. Only now that I know
there're many things in this world that you can do without the need of
being smart.
My life that only I know of, thank you
for bringing me here. So please, don't get into any accident. Wait
for me to thank you personally.
Although it's very easy for others to
say that but it's difficult for me. Thank you. Please be safe.
Always in a very rush pace like,
really wanted to hurry myself. My pave could never follow up with my
worries.
The sun was about to set. That scared cat and young Eun Jo together, they must be really afraid? Why not
let me be there?
Able to hear all the hungry animals in
the mountain that they didn't even know that way.
Imagining the two shivering, how I hope
wings would grow out of my legs so that I could fly over. The cruel
imagination was tying to my legs. If God exists,
please...them...please...
Oh Ha Ni, look what you have done to me
again. Why am I always running when I'm with you? Please don't say
anything like “I'm sorry to cause anyone trouble” or things like
that again.
Don't move, please be safe. Don't
injured yourself. Stay at places where I could see you...Places where
I could find you...
Lucky. Nothing happened. That was the
first time I was so happy to see you. Oh Ha Ni, your frightened
expression made me felt awful.
I hate the you who always startle me,
feel angry, feel frightened because of you. Laugh foolishly because
of you. Since when my feeling are being controlled by you? Bit by
bit, you are peeling off my shell.
I was a little happy to see you that
day. No! Was very...
Sigh...
Really scared me.
Afraid that you were lost. Afraid that
you got hurt because of me again.
Felt the unknown feeling when I was on
my way for the University Entrance interview once again. In the
jungle when the night slowly crept in, I was really scared. Scared
that I would lose you.
Hate you for always making me lose my
rationality...
Sleepy head, it's already late, the
sun was already shining brightly, the birds were chirping. You were
still sleeping?
I felt really relieve to be able to see
you, appearing in front of me safe and sound. Don't go anywhere, just
stay here. Wait till the day when I walk towards you...
For me, how great it would be, from the
start till the end.
Feel it in your dream? How much I like
you?
Now my heart can't stop. Like water
flowing downwards, I don't wanna lose you. Couldn't imagine you're
not being by my side.
Silly, do I have to say it out? I will
rush over if you call me. I will do all the things that you wish for.
You still don't understand how I feel even if I don't say it?
Dimwit.
Friday, 25 May 2012
CREDIT: MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated to English By: reena29shadow
Edited By: ChaBori204
EPISODE 10
“Mom, I'll call.” “I'm off, Eun
Jo”
Hope that I was able to convey that
messages through Eun Jo to you.
I was looking at you but you were in
your own miserable world and didn't bother about me. Couldn't hug you
like Eun Jo, couldn't be like Mom, couldn't even say "take care of
yourself when I'm not around", only could look at you...
To accompany me to go further, now you
have to take a rest. So let's do our best to fly higher.
We...Hope that you will be able to find
it within days. Try hard to find it.
The sad face that seems like I'll
never see again...still came in the end.
It's been a long time. You waving your
hand while saying “Hello”. Went into my heart without permission.
Maybe unknowingly I was also looking forward to it? That's why I was
happy when I saw your face.
What should I do? You...
What do I mean to you? How could you be
so perserve towards me...
The love you have for me, never
ending...Why won't I find you irritating? Look at you secretly while
I was working is also something interesting.
Looking at you holding the coffee cup
with both hands, the way you yawned, biting your pencil, titling your
head when you met with question that you didn't understand.
You could be very happy even when
alone, Oh Ha Ni. Now it has become like a habit, you are just like
oxygen to me. Just like a tree that's always by my side.
What happened? It's been a few days
since I saw Ha Ni. Is she unwell? Couldn't be about studies.
Waiting is a torment. You felt tired as
well? To wait for me. Where are you now?
Like as if my legs were floating,
couldn't sit down to do something. It's been two weeks since Ha Ni
last came. Am I missing her?
Just concern about that person who came
here everyday stopped coming anymore suddenly. Only because of this?
I couldn't calm down.
Been very sensitive to the sound of
door opening. Trying hard to find you everyday, but it always
dissolved to nothing.
Like a fool...silly. Might as well
asked it directly!
Bearing all these alone, turning this
pale. Seeing you suffering, why does my heart hurt as well? My heart
really hurts. I know this would happen, that's why I came to look for
you immediately. Don't get hurt because of Yoon Hae Ra. Silly. Can't
you have more confidence in yourself?
You are so stong-willed. Putting your
best into everything, Oh Ha Ni. The Oh Ha Ni who will tear for
other's pain, the one and only Oh Ha Ni. To yourself...
That's right. I had nothing to say
either. I did misunderstood about you and Sunbae too. Why would we
became like this? We will understand if we really think about it. But
we always got angry for all the little things...
Am I infected by your disease? The Fool
disease.
It's not even half a day since I told
you that I'm not living with Hae Ra and you appeared. Being in the
rain, even your lips turned to purple. How did you endure it? Really
want to come here that much?
You...Don't know what should I do with
you.
Getting caught it that rain,
shivering. Seeing you walked in, I had no idea what should I say.
It really hurts me to see your lips
turning to purple, but looking at you not cherishing yourself, really
wanted to scold you. Why are you so stubborn?
Can I understand it this way? I'm just
standing here, don't have to do anything. Just continue to accept
your feelings, can I?
You always shock me. Just looking at me
and dash forward without caring about others. I still couldn't be
like you. Only you able to do it.
Saying I'm cold-blooded just because I
wasn't letting her slept on the bed. I could actually feel Ha Ni who
was lying beside me. Body tensed up because of being nervous.
“You...are you nervous?”
“No...no..”
Saying the opposite thing that your
body felt. Silly, it's not only you who were feeling nervous. I felt
nervous too. Although I'm a cold prince, but the young blood in me is
not frozen. Always try to mix my feelings for you into the harsh
words, to attach it firmly to the thing that I call rational.
Spending a night with me and didn't
know what would happen. Example like kiss. Yes, I actually wanted to
kiss you, wanted to feel that warmness.
But if it really happens under this
circumstances, I don't know what would happen.
You were really warm behind my back.
But...but...but I could only restrain myself.
A 20 years old guy, sending off a girl
who walked into the dark room. Do you know that it's something very
difficult to do? It's not even a girl that I dislike...
During times like this, guys are all
animals!
So, I could only hide my feelings under
the thing called 'prank'.
How could you throw your undergarment
like that and went into the bathroom? Silly Oh Ha Ni. What are you
making me imagine? Are you really a girl?
Although I always making fun of you,
saying that you stopped growing since primary school. But that was
all jokes. You can't take it for real.
You wearing bathrobe appearing infront
of me, it's really disturbing. The faint smell that came from your
body, the pale shoulders...I'm always hiding from it.
Don't blame yourself. Even if your
figure is not that amazing, not that great. Oh Ha Ni! Your existence
is already very precious and beautiful.
I'm just not willing to live my life
like how Mom has planned. I'm just sick of having such a special Mom.
Because of Mom who brought me up like a girl, my friends made fun of
me.
Even when I was in primary school, some
of them still remember the days when I dressed up as a girl. I hate the me who accept everything
that people planned, also hate the Mom did this to me.
Since young, I have shut the door in my
heart. Maybe this is the reason why I'm so harsh to my parents. I
can't allow my Mom to treat me like this anymore. If anything happen
between us, it will just like what my Mom wish for.
I can't accept that. The deep feeling you have for me, my Mom will feel it even deeper. I might be sick
of it very soon and then run away from it. So, today I will tolerate
it. You, who is just like the spring breeze blowing in my heart.
Tonight, sleepless. Looking at your
face, my heart is softening.
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
9
“If you like Hae Ra, I... but, why
didn't you pull Hae Ra with you when you run but me instead?”
Oh Ha Ni who asked all the stupid
questions.
You are always making wild guesses and
because you always indulged yourself in all the wild guesses you
make, that's why you couldn't see my heart.
Can you, even for just one second,
stand still and take a look closely into my eyes?
Look how big your position has become in my eyes. If you see it, you will know the reason why I left
Hae Ra and pulled you to run with me. Silly Oh Ha Ni.
“I don't hate you. Although being
with you is not easy but I don't hate you.”
It feels really sudden. It's like
solving a math question.
Right, that's it. Oh Ha Ni, you are too
different from me. How you show others your uncondition love. How you
say you hate it but still braving forward to get close.
In the beginning I had no idea how to
get along with you. Then slowly I started to see you. After looking
clearly, I understood it.
I understood that not everything must
be like what I think to be correct. Understood that you are not
wrong. If the question is not wrong, then let's find out. Slowly...
To be honest, the day when you injured
yourself and we had to give up the competition. When I was carrying
you home, I understood that it needs to be stopped. Stop building up that
protection wall in my heart.
Your breathe on my back gave me warmth.
So happy, it's like finding the puppy that was lost. Felt like the
separation for the past few days were all paid back. No matter how I
pushed you away, you still walked in despite anything.
I decided to accept it. Just let my
heart be. Like a river that couldn't be stopped, praying that it
won't be too tiring.
Because I allowed my heart to be free,
my heart who was once mixed up because it couldn't understand what
kind of person I really am, now looking at you.
From now on, I'll not going to hide
from it. From now on, I'll be staying here for a while, waiting for
this girl.
You seem like you can hear the water
flowing with just one touch...You who seem like you can flow through
my fingers...
Now, I'm starting to try to understand
you...
Oh Ha Ni! Sometimes I really couldn't
understand what kind of girl are you. It's really difficult to
understand you. Doing all these infront of so many people, how can it
not become a joke for others?
You might think that you are an upright
person and also same for other people. Then, you are wrong! Please be
more vigilant when you with other people. I will be very thankful.
I purposely walked away, acted like I
didn't see it. The way Ha Ni get along with other people... Although
I know that I can understand you because I know your innocence.
Not sure if it's because I decided to
accept Oh Ha Ni, really get mad easier anytime. Compared to the time
when Bong Joon Gu carried Oh Ha Ni, compared to the time when she
squated behind the bushes with Sunbae, this time it felt angrier.
They even kissed?
It can't be real, right? It can't be!
The person Oh Ha Ni likes is me. She only likes me. I tried very hard
to contain my anger but it didn't seem to be working.
The amount of capacity you occupies in
my heart equals to how much I hate this moment. Like being stuck in
the middle of the road, couldn't breathe.
“The rumour with Sunbae...”
“I'm really scared, I afraid that
I've done anything wrong that will cause Eun Jo to be in danger...”
While sobbing, you confessed the
feeling that you didn't dare to before. You, who were crying in my
arms, hugging you like this, I couldn't say a word. Although I felt
better after hearing Sunbae explaining the situation, but because I
felt sorry for being suspicious about you even for that second. So, I
purposely ignored you.
Though I know that my cold eyes make
you very sad but there's this boy in me who has not grown up. Even
so, you still treat my brother so... The concern for Eun Jo, worrying
for Eun Jo, the anxiety about the rumour. Hugging the trembling you,
today is the first time I feel that the boy in me who didn't want to
grow up is so hateful.
Cry...cry all you might, till you no
longer feel sad, till your tears no longer in pain...
“Such a small kid, doing check up
everyday, injection, medication, couldn't do what he wants to do.”
Unknowingly, tears started to form in
Oh Ha Ni's eyes. Even if you cry, it didnt' help anything. But you
are always like this, crying for others. Right, it's this kind of
heart.
Things you have, the warm care you have
for others which is what I don't have.
“If it's you, if you are determine,
to become a doctor is just like flipping a coin. I hope you can
become a doctor and help those children like No Ri and also many
other patients who are being tortured by illness..”
“I have to become a doctor just
because you said so?”
“Yes! That's it. Isn't that a good
idea? Doctor is the profession most suitable for you. Baek Seung Jo
wearing a white robe should look really handsome.”
As if it's about yourself. Looking at
me with much more confident in me than I have in myself, saying that
she hopes I can become a doctor.
Oh Ha Ni....suddenly I felt that, maybe
that isn't that bad. Taking care of sick patients, curing
people...also felt that it's something very far away.
Only now that I realize, the fear that
I have for the area that I don't understand. Able to help those
people who are suffering from illness. Maybe it will be like what you
said, it's something with great achievement.
At that time, I still didn't know that
the things Oh Ha Ni said today becomes an important factor in my
life.
You looked once at the star, once at
me...
Me, looked once at you, once at the
star although we didn't look straight into each other's eyes.
“It'll be really thankful if you
don't become a burden!”
Although it's out of habit, the harsh
words blurted out of my mouth.
But I hope that you are able to receive
my thoughts. It's great that you came back...
Oh Ha Ni, welcome back Oh Ha Ni...
My thoughts were in mess because of
the things you asked me. “Hope that you will become a doctor.”
The things that you said that day, it
appeared in my mind every night.
Is that really I should do? Can I do
well? Can I get out from the world that is full of myself?
I saw a different kind of world through
you. Understand that a different world is just being different. It's
not that it's wrong. I want to experience this world more. Even if by
doing that, I'm not able to be with you.
Today, I learn to leave you. Walking
towards the path that you taught me to, alone...
“I think now is the best time to
consider what I want to do in the future. I wish to be left in an
unprotected world, to find myself again.” After considering for a
few days, I told my parents my thoughts.
“Ok, you should go experience it.”
Though I told my Dad who was worried
about my future, that I'm not interested in studying Economics, but
Dad is always supporting me. I should be thankful to him.
“Ha Ni just moved back not long
ago...” Mom is still worries about Ha Ni.
“This got nothing to do with her.
This is my life.”
In fact, Mom might not know actually
this has got all to do with her. She didn't know that it's Ha Ni who
showed me the other world.
Only hope that Ha Ni won't feel hurt.
Hope that you will understand that I moved out not because I dislike
you...Don't just because you are not the magnificent flower and felt
sorry. I hope that you will realize your unique values.
Know that under the intense heat, even
a small tree is very precious. Know that even a small tree that is
able to accept everyone is very precious.
Although it's normal, but there's lots
of things you can treasure in this world. This, is what you taught
me.
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