Saturday, 24 November 2012
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
12
“Move back home. What's gonna happen
to Mom's dream of everyone staying together happily? Treat Ha Ni
better as well. She thought you left because of her. Shouldn't you do
something?”
Mom is always worried about Ha Ni. But
you don't have to. Ha Ni will find her own way no matter how. This
kid is so much more stronger than I imagine.
“I decide my own life. I won't be
Mom and Dad's puppet. To Ha Ni as well. You didn't ask for my opinion
when you asked her to move back in with us this time. So Mom, just
let it be.”
Mom, you are making it difficult for
me. How nice it will be if you don't always ask me to do things your
way. That is what other people call popularity.
The incident on dressing up as a girl
that made me became a laughing stock among my friends, made me
singled out from others. Plus being called genius, compared to other
kids I know much more, so I've been treated life a treasure.
Unknowingly, I got used to the life of
not expressing my thought. In this world that even if I know many
things but it still wouldn't be accepted infront of this mom who
always says “It would be great if it's a girl.” It's very
difficult to express myself.
Now, I'm going to look for myself. Look
for the me that can still survive even without any help. A strong
world that no one can interfere.
Accompanying the sound of the wind, Ha
Ni walked out. Is she angry?
Denying that she's my girlfriend. It's
still a little dificult for me to explain.
I don't like to talk about us infront
of people whom I'm not very close with. Those people always choose to
only listen about what they want. Can our difference be told by
words?
Publisizing distorted facts. Do they
know that this will bring damage to others? But no matter when, you
will still be Number 1 in my heart.
Ha Ni, you are the only one whom I can
tell my worries to. That is you! Oh Ha Ni.
Is it right? My decision...
The decision about going to medical
school, is it really mine?
Dad who asked me to study business, Ha
Ni who said that it would be great if I go to medical school.
I, who will not be the puppet of my
parents, why would I be manipulated by Ha Ni?
“Baek Seung Jo, you do well in
everything. If you go to medical school, you can cure No Ri and many
other people in the world. Isn't it great to be able to help others?”
Couldn't forget the scene of you
looking at me. You who told me confidently what I should do. Then on,
I secretly learn a little on medical.
Surprisingly, I'm getting interested in
it. Gaining more and more interest in the field that's new to me.
So I decided this will be the path I'll
take. The way you guided me.
“Anything troubling you? Let me help
you!”
It would be great if you really help me. Unknowingly coming after me because I don't look well. You are
always looking at me, right?
That's why you are feeling troubled? My
friend, Oh Ha Ni.
“I've decided to study medical.
Although I'm not sure if it's suitable for me, but this is the first
time I'm interested in something.”
“Is it because of what I said? Still
remember the things I've said?”
Able and know what to do well...Seems
like you have already forgotten what you said to me. Indeed, it's
you...silly.
I feel that everything you said to me
have special meaning, so I remember everything. I have things I want
to do, living my life happily, provide happiness to others...
You said things like if I can become a
doctor, I'll be able to save No Ri. I changed because of what you
said. My life, you gave me a meaning to it.
Still the same! Panicking Oh Ha Ni!
You said that all your friends have
found things that they want to do. You looked really lonely. I want
to listen to your worries today, just like how you listened to me few
days ago.
“Tell me! Tell me your dream.”
“It's if you're a doctor in the
village, I'm the nurse. I will help you with the work, pacifying
those crying children. But there's a problem in my dream. If you want
to be a pilot, I want to be a stewerdess. If you want to be a
professional golfer, I'll be a caddy, still as willful. I'm always
revolving around Baek Seung Jo. Don't have a presence of my own.”
Although you said sorry but I still
feel secretly happy. In your dreams, there's still me. But can you
she become a nurse with her results?
“Isn't it worth it to fullfil your
dreams, right?”
I patted her shoulder. Just like what
she did to me. The day I went for the exam, you patted my shoulder
and say 'good boy'! Like the day in the car on the way to the beach,
you patted my shoulder while laughing, and like the time when we were
catching the doll. You always comfort me like this...
So today, I also use this way to comfort you. Oh Ha Ni, fighting!! Hope that you'll be able to fulfill your
dream no matter what. Even it's really tough, you have to know that
you are Noah's snail Oh Ha Ni!
Wait. Wait for the day that we both
wear the white robe.
“Seung Jo-ah! You decide your future
without discussing it with me?”
Dad looked really angry. Dad who always
speaks in a soft tone now sounds really angry.
“I wish to do things that I like in
my life.”
“Can't you take over Dad's company?”
“I want to be a doctor. I won't take
over Dad's company.”
Ignoring my dad's opinion, it's not
part of my plan to allow Dad to interfere with my life.
Yes, this is the ridiculous thing that
I imagine. Eating the raw yam, drinking the salty soup. This is the
first time I'm eating yam that taste like raw potato, crunchy, it
really isn't that good.
But I still finished it because it's
made by her. She would be very sad if I didn't eat it. How her eyes
would be sunken? How much torment would she get from Eun Jo?
I'm always worried about you. I did
housework when I was living alone. It's really not something easy.
The empty space of yours makes me feel
regret. Only now I treasure you by my side.
Even though I said I'll eat outside,
you still prepared a lunch box.
“I did it from early in the
morning...”
Pleading, can't do anything other than
accept it. Couldn't ignore that thought, I accepted the lunch box in
fear.
Right too, I think I heard the noise
you made since early in the morning. Although the heart shaped egg
looked so good, but how does it taste?
Even though it really did look like you
put in all your heart to do it, but why did it make me feel more and
more uneasy?
“Your lover did it?”
Department Head asked me. I don't know
why but I didn't disagree. Already to the extend that I couldn't deny that you have already gone so deep into my heart.
Joon Gu gave me his eel lunch box and
snatched the one Ha Ni made away. Joon Gu, today you will know Ha
Ni's nature. Maybe the split second when your fantasy burst will be
very charming. Keke...
“Seems like Dad needs operation. I
have to be in the company for the time being.”
Slowly, words flew out of my mouth. I
thought it would be great if I didn't have to be the one saying it.
But there's really nothing I can do when facing the reality.
“Then what about medical school? This
is the first time, the first time you have something that you want to
do, your dream!”
Yes, that's my dream. A painful dream
that disappears.
“Although it's not interesting, but
if I stay in the company, Dad will be happy.”
Yes, even if I have to compromise, but
it will be good if I can succeed. Although it's boring to me...
“Seung Jo, how? What should I do?”
Today, your sad voice gave me comfort.
Compared to me, you who feel sad because of me...Your tears...it
became a comfort. Slowly, going into my life, unknowingly it reduced
my pain.
The night that we both suffer in
agony...Even the stars couldn't get to sleep, you and I couldn't get
to sleep...
“President's grand-daughter is there.
Do you mind going for a meet up?”
Blind date as the condition of
providing financial support...
Business strategic marriage that always
happens for business is going to come true? When money and money
meets, benefits and benefits meets, it's like begging, I also have to
do it? To save the company?
I also have to do the things that I
once looked down upon. This is the cruel truth. I understand that no
matter how I feign arrogance, I still can't avoid the fact that's
coming to me.
Dad works hard like this too?
Alone...like this...fighting against how many problems that he
couldn't solve?
Man, the support of the family, the
burden in the life is too heavy, seems like it's suffocating.
How?
You're still going through so much
trouble for my family today but I have to abandon you...How? I...
I hurt my dad too much. There's really
nothing else I can do. Feeling sorry for dad who has fainted because
of the shock that I gave him.
Dad's dream. I can't act like I don't
know dad's hardship all along. Family who rely on this company...
Mom and Eun Jo...what will happen to
you?
Ha Ni-ah...what about my heart that
couldn't incline to you?
The newly born man in me is bleeding.
Pain, very painful.
Now I have decided....abandon you.
Delete all those wonderful memories...It's okay, it's going to be
okay...it's only 2 years. The memories with her, just forget and it
will be okay.
I can forget, keep my heart away. Like
a paper that's being hit by water, keeps tearing my heart apart...
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
11
You didn't disappointing me, Oh Ha Ni
who's always so abrupt totally fell through. Are you really a girl?
Right too, this is Oh Ha Ni!
Your sleeping posture, even a wrestler
couldn't compete with you. Finally managed to fall asleep and your
leg came over or your hands started waving onto my face. What were
you dreaming about? Laughing non stop and frowning. Did you just have
a bad dream?
Just then, fell of the bed. No matter
what, I was unable to sleep. Maybe this is also lucky to me!
Didn't all 20 years old guy imagine
something like this. The girl lying beside you, breathing slowly, both
hands placing in front of your chest, lying her head on your arm,
sleeping soundly.
I might need to go through a very tough
night but it's also good in a way, thank you for disrupting my sleep.
Thank you for holding on tightly to my heart, Oh Ha Ni. Keke!
You look like a puppy when you are
sleeping so soundly. When you frown, you look like a kitten. You look
kinda cute like this.
Wear the clothes that you pick? Oh Ha
Ni, don't tell me now you are indulging yourself into your fascination about me. Imagining that today is the first morning of our marriage
life?
Just a little better, and you start to
have unlimited fascination How should I show you my inner self? Seems
like I can only smile like this behind your back, you silly girl.
This kind of newly wed life, how is it
entertaining? I beg you, please don't be so over. Although I'm also
felt it's interesting.
Having breakfast with you, wearing the
shoes you prepared for me, you tapping my shoulder, it's all like
some childish make-believe game.
But I will remember this day for a long
time, very very long time. A certain innocent and silly girl, the
silly girl that imagines a lot, kind of story.
Oh Ha Ni received date request from
other guy? What type of guy would like her? With so special taste.
Even if so, this kid wouldn't change.
No matter what have you all heard, Oh Ha Ni will not change. Nothing
to worry about. Wrong, is that I don't want to worry at all.
Silly Oh Ha Ni, I wore the clothes that
you picked for me today. You should be happy if you see it!
Just when I was thinking about that, I
heard you said...
“That guy, he's also as handsome as
you. That guy also as smart as you. The biggest difference is, he
treats a girl much better than you!”
So, that senior is as handsome as me,
smart, treating girls well. So, you are going to forget me? You will
not succeed!
“Don't have to ask me for permission.
Oh Ha Ni is not mine, go ahead!”
Even if I abandon her, she will not go
anywhere else but it's also a good idea if you can give up.
I have confidence. I believe that Oh Ha
Ni will never leave me!
What's that scorching things that's
flowing in my heart? There's an unknown thing boiling. My mind seems
like it's going to explode.
How dare he put his arm on Ha Ni's
shoulder. Oh Ha Ni, how dare you smiled so happily in other guy's
arm? Even I don't have such body contact with you.
It's nothing. I believe nothing will
happen. I still couldn't tolerate that arm on Ha Ni's shoulder.
Hurt just like something was poking
into me. An unknown fire started in my heart. My heart was like
stepping on a thin layer of ice, breaking into half. I...can only ran
away from that table.
Oh Ha Ni only likes me. Till now, it's
only me! This is only a tactic, a tactic to make me jealous. I try to
comfort myself, Ha Ni. She's still that Noah's snail Oh Ha Ni that
still only looks at me. I believe that.
No matter what, I still feel that it's
a scheme between her and Mom. Because I believe in Oh Ha Ni. Wanted
to monitor it further because her looks when she's trying to lie to
me is really interesting.
But I really couldn't bear to see it
anymore. The moment when I heard that you went on a date with senior
at the park, a voice in me was telling myself to quickly end this.
Looking at someone else putting his arm
on your shoulder in the park, how will you smile at home? Or will he
hold your hand? All these questions filled up in my head like
bubbles.
“You guys can't be fighting over Oh
Ha Ni right? No matter how you fight, even if you really injured
yourself, it has nothing to do with me. But I'm the only one that Ha
Ni likes. It's you who will be in the lose end even if you fight!”
(Got it? So, Oh Ha Ni's shoulders belong to me!)
The shoulders that my hand was holding
on felt so realistic. “Didn't Mom ask us home for dinner together
tonight?” (This is how our relationship is like. It's the relation
that we can freely move in and out of the house!)
Today, the childish boy in me once
again defended his own territory. Oh Ha Ni only likes me!
2nd kiss
“Seung Jo-ah, the mountain trail is
so dangerous! It seems like there's animals in there!”
“Where's Eun Jo and Ha Ni? They are
the first to set off and they still not back yet?”
Thunders started ringing in my ears.
Don't tell me they are alone in the mountain? First time climbing the
mountain, they didn't even know the way.
A cold and scary wave crept up from
behind. Uneasiness gushed in like Tsunami.
The place managed by Sunbae has sudden
increase in customers. Although it's not rapid growth, but it's
gradually going up. Other than cafe, I also wish to go other places
and learn more.
Sweeping the fallen leaves, welcoming
guests or preparing the barbecue pit. Although I'm not very good at
it, sometimes it might not even work but's it's very interesting.
Can prove your value but just some
simple work that doesn't require to be smart. Only now that I know
there're many things in this world that you can do without the need of
being smart.
My life that only I know of, thank you
for bringing me here. So please, don't get into any accident. Wait
for me to thank you personally.
Although it's very easy for others to
say that but it's difficult for me. Thank you. Please be safe.
Always in a very rush pace like,
really wanted to hurry myself. My pave could never follow up with my
worries.
The sun was about to set. That scared cat and young Eun Jo together, they must be really afraid? Why not
let me be there?
Able to hear all the hungry animals in
the mountain that they didn't even know that way.
Imagining the two shivering, how I hope
wings would grow out of my legs so that I could fly over. The cruel
imagination was tying to my legs. If God exists,
please...them...please...
Oh Ha Ni, look what you have done to me
again. Why am I always running when I'm with you? Please don't say
anything like “I'm sorry to cause anyone trouble” or things like
that again.
Don't move, please be safe. Don't
injured yourself. Stay at places where I could see you...Places where
I could find you...
Lucky. Nothing happened. That was the
first time I was so happy to see you. Oh Ha Ni, your frightened
expression made me felt awful.
I hate the you who always startle me,
feel angry, feel frightened because of you. Laugh foolishly because
of you. Since when my feeling are being controlled by you? Bit by
bit, you are peeling off my shell.
I was a little happy to see you that
day. No! Was very...
Sigh...
Really scared me.
Afraid that you were lost. Afraid that
you got hurt because of me again.
Felt the unknown feeling when I was on
my way for the University Entrance interview once again. In the
jungle when the night slowly crept in, I was really scared. Scared
that I would lose you.
Hate you for always making me lose my
rationality...
Sleepy head, it's already late, the
sun was already shining brightly, the birds were chirping. You were
still sleeping?
I felt really relieve to be able to see
you, appearing in front of me safe and sound. Don't go anywhere, just
stay here. Wait till the day when I walk towards you...
For me, how great it would be, from the
start till the end.
Feel it in your dream? How much I like
you?
Now my heart can't stop. Like water
flowing downwards, I don't wanna lose you. Couldn't imagine you're
not being by my side.
Silly, do I have to say it out? I will
rush over if you call me. I will do all the things that you wish for.
You still don't understand how I feel even if I don't say it?
Dimwit.
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