Saturday, 24 November 2012
CREDIT:
MISCHIEVOUS KISS OFFICIAL WEBSITE (SEUNG JO'S DIARY COLUMN)
Translated
to Chinese By: Korea Version Mischievous Kiss
Translated
to English By: reena29shadow
Edited
By: ChaBori204
EPISODE
12
“Move back home. What's gonna happen
to Mom's dream of everyone staying together happily? Treat Ha Ni
better as well. She thought you left because of her. Shouldn't you do
something?”
Mom is always worried about Ha Ni. But
you don't have to. Ha Ni will find her own way no matter how. This
kid is so much more stronger than I imagine.
“I decide my own life. I won't be
Mom and Dad's puppet. To Ha Ni as well. You didn't ask for my opinion
when you asked her to move back in with us this time. So Mom, just
let it be.”
Mom, you are making it difficult for
me. How nice it will be if you don't always ask me to do things your
way. That is what other people call popularity.
The incident on dressing up as a girl
that made me became a laughing stock among my friends, made me
singled out from others. Plus being called genius, compared to other
kids I know much more, so I've been treated life a treasure.
Unknowingly, I got used to the life of
not expressing my thought. In this world that even if I know many
things but it still wouldn't be accepted infront of this mom who
always says “It would be great if it's a girl.” It's very
difficult to express myself.
Now, I'm going to look for myself. Look
for the me that can still survive even without any help. A strong
world that no one can interfere.
Accompanying the sound of the wind, Ha
Ni walked out. Is she angry?
Denying that she's my girlfriend. It's
still a little dificult for me to explain.
I don't like to talk about us infront
of people whom I'm not very close with. Those people always choose to
only listen about what they want. Can our difference be told by
words?
Publisizing distorted facts. Do they
know that this will bring damage to others? But no matter when, you
will still be Number 1 in my heart.
Ha Ni, you are the only one whom I can
tell my worries to. That is you! Oh Ha Ni.
Is it right? My decision...
The decision about going to medical
school, is it really mine?
Dad who asked me to study business, Ha
Ni who said that it would be great if I go to medical school.
I, who will not be the puppet of my
parents, why would I be manipulated by Ha Ni?
“Baek Seung Jo, you do well in
everything. If you go to medical school, you can cure No Ri and many
other people in the world. Isn't it great to be able to help others?”
Couldn't forget the scene of you
looking at me. You who told me confidently what I should do. Then on,
I secretly learn a little on medical.
Surprisingly, I'm getting interested in
it. Gaining more and more interest in the field that's new to me.
So I decided this will be the path I'll
take. The way you guided me.
“Anything troubling you? Let me help
you!”
It would be great if you really help me. Unknowingly coming after me because I don't look well. You are
always looking at me, right?
That's why you are feeling troubled? My
friend, Oh Ha Ni.
“I've decided to study medical.
Although I'm not sure if it's suitable for me, but this is the first
time I'm interested in something.”
“Is it because of what I said? Still
remember the things I've said?”
Able and know what to do well...Seems
like you have already forgotten what you said to me. Indeed, it's
you...silly.
I feel that everything you said to me
have special meaning, so I remember everything. I have things I want
to do, living my life happily, provide happiness to others...
You said things like if I can become a
doctor, I'll be able to save No Ri. I changed because of what you
said. My life, you gave me a meaning to it.
Still the same! Panicking Oh Ha Ni!
You said that all your friends have
found things that they want to do. You looked really lonely. I want
to listen to your worries today, just like how you listened to me few
days ago.
“Tell me! Tell me your dream.”
“It's if you're a doctor in the
village, I'm the nurse. I will help you with the work, pacifying
those crying children. But there's a problem in my dream. If you want
to be a pilot, I want to be a stewerdess. If you want to be a
professional golfer, I'll be a caddy, still as willful. I'm always
revolving around Baek Seung Jo. Don't have a presence of my own.”
Although you said sorry but I still
feel secretly happy. In your dreams, there's still me. But can you
she become a nurse with her results?
“Isn't it worth it to fullfil your
dreams, right?”
I patted her shoulder. Just like what
she did to me. The day I went for the exam, you patted my shoulder
and say 'good boy'! Like the day in the car on the way to the beach,
you patted my shoulder while laughing, and like the time when we were
catching the doll. You always comfort me like this...
So today, I also use this way to comfort you. Oh Ha Ni, fighting!! Hope that you'll be able to fulfill your
dream no matter what. Even it's really tough, you have to know that
you are Noah's snail Oh Ha Ni!
Wait. Wait for the day that we both
wear the white robe.
“Seung Jo-ah! You decide your future
without discussing it with me?”
Dad looked really angry. Dad who always
speaks in a soft tone now sounds really angry.
“I wish to do things that I like in
my life.”
“Can't you take over Dad's company?”
“I want to be a doctor. I won't take
over Dad's company.”
Ignoring my dad's opinion, it's not
part of my plan to allow Dad to interfere with my life.
Yes, this is the ridiculous thing that
I imagine. Eating the raw yam, drinking the salty soup. This is the
first time I'm eating yam that taste like raw potato, crunchy, it
really isn't that good.
But I still finished it because it's
made by her. She would be very sad if I didn't eat it. How her eyes
would be sunken? How much torment would she get from Eun Jo?
I'm always worried about you. I did
housework when I was living alone. It's really not something easy.
The empty space of yours makes me feel
regret. Only now I treasure you by my side.
Even though I said I'll eat outside,
you still prepared a lunch box.
“I did it from early in the
morning...”
Pleading, can't do anything other than
accept it. Couldn't ignore that thought, I accepted the lunch box in
fear.
Right too, I think I heard the noise
you made since early in the morning. Although the heart shaped egg
looked so good, but how does it taste?
Even though it really did look like you
put in all your heart to do it, but why did it make me feel more and
more uneasy?
“Your lover did it?”
Department Head asked me. I don't know
why but I didn't disagree. Already to the extend that I couldn't deny that you have already gone so deep into my heart.
Joon Gu gave me his eel lunch box and
snatched the one Ha Ni made away. Joon Gu, today you will know Ha
Ni's nature. Maybe the split second when your fantasy burst will be
very charming. Keke...
“Seems like Dad needs operation. I
have to be in the company for the time being.”
Slowly, words flew out of my mouth. I
thought it would be great if I didn't have to be the one saying it.
But there's really nothing I can do when facing the reality.
“Then what about medical school? This
is the first time, the first time you have something that you want to
do, your dream!”
Yes, that's my dream. A painful dream
that disappears.
“Although it's not interesting, but
if I stay in the company, Dad will be happy.”
Yes, even if I have to compromise, but
it will be good if I can succeed. Although it's boring to me...
“Seung Jo, how? What should I do?”
Today, your sad voice gave me comfort.
Compared to me, you who feel sad because of me...Your tears...it
became a comfort. Slowly, going into my life, unknowingly it reduced
my pain.
The night that we both suffer in
agony...Even the stars couldn't get to sleep, you and I couldn't get
to sleep...
“President's grand-daughter is there.
Do you mind going for a meet up?”
Blind date as the condition of
providing financial support...
Business strategic marriage that always
happens for business is going to come true? When money and money
meets, benefits and benefits meets, it's like begging, I also have to
do it? To save the company?
I also have to do the things that I
once looked down upon. This is the cruel truth. I understand that no
matter how I feign arrogance, I still can't avoid the fact that's
coming to me.
Dad works hard like this too?
Alone...like this...fighting against how many problems that he
couldn't solve?
Man, the support of the family, the
burden in the life is too heavy, seems like it's suffocating.
How?
You're still going through so much
trouble for my family today but I have to abandon you...How? I...
I hurt my dad too much. There's really
nothing else I can do. Feeling sorry for dad who has fainted because
of the shock that I gave him.
Dad's dream. I can't act like I don't
know dad's hardship all along. Family who rely on this company...
Mom and Eun Jo...what will happen to
you?
Ha Ni-ah...what about my heart that
couldn't incline to you?
The newly born man in me is bleeding.
Pain, very painful.
Now I have decided....abandon you.
Delete all those wonderful memories...It's okay, it's going to be
okay...it's only 2 years. The memories with her, just forget and it
will be okay.
I can forget, keep my heart away. Like
a paper that's being hit by water, keeps tearing my heart apart...
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